River

And I have seen the waves

And laid myself dead within dark caves

And I have walked the dark miles

Peeling off my lonely smiles, 

And I have fallen on my knees

And begged and begged to be free

And yet today I see, a horizon still tied

To a sea of tears not yet dried 

And I wonder if I will not

Surrender to what I fought

Not walk willingly in a mesh

And bleed all over afresh

And I wonder why, when I know,

That the lights, the songs are all just show

Why would I drink in from the glass

That cut me deep sometime, alas.

And yet I know there it flows

The river that life is, there it goes

And as I stand at the shore,

I wonder again, how much more

Shall I watch it ripple away,

And I wonder, if I may

Jump in that river of joys and pain

To live again, to die again

Again and again.